Hello Friends,
I am pretty time poor at the moment due to having fun with
the family on school holidays, so I will need to get straight to the point.
The affirmation “I
trust the process of life” has manifested immediate results and in three
distinct awareness.
The first manifestation was that I had to have a CT scan.
Are we ever more vulnerable than being half naked, unable to even flinch in a
machine that sounds like it is about to take off, all while the medics run for
cover in another room? I was reminded
how fragile our mortal body is, but also how resilient. I was present in that
moment of the inevitability that somewhere, sometime my body will begin the
process of decay which will gain momentum as it is drawn toward physical death. As I lay there I could not deny that such a
journey is an unavoidable process of life.
A day later I was about to land at Tullamarine Airport. We
were low enough that I could tell that those cows on the ground were actually
bulls. Suddenly, in a thrust of power that made the aircraft shudder, we were
straining to ascend, the engines powering up as the landing was aborted. My
husband, who was seated in the aisle, could hear the warning alarm sound from
the flight deck and in an instant every horror scenario passed through my mind,
while I simultaneously knew it was ok. It reminded me that part of the process
of life is the truth that no matter how well my spiritual fire might
burn, events will still happen that I cannot consciously control and that some
will be terrible and I will have to endure and journey them regardless.
The final event was the funeral of a friend. Here I was
confronted with the notion of loss and impermanence as part of the process
of life. I prefer to think that
he has ‘dropped the body’ or ‘shifted dimensions’ than consider he has died.
Only the mortal body dies, the eternal just changes form.
In some Eastern religions, your final thoughts at the point
of death are considered so critical to the death/reincarnation process
of life that they dedicate a great amount of their energy in life
preparing for the moment of death. In the West however, we tend to push death
away, fight it and in some cases try to beat it. Yet, as George Harrison
sang...”All things must pass”.
Given I am approaching the 50 milestone and likely have more
life behind me than ahead, I couldn’t help but consider how prepared I am to
embrace the ultimate process of life – that is; in
working consciously with my death.
You would be aware that in my last blog I decided to give up
my need to harbour enemies, which means I must also give up my attachment to
being ‘right’ – or at least that others are wrong or have wronged me. The process of life affirmation has
given rise to events which demonstrate clearly just why that is so important.
It is easy to ‘trust the process’ when we are ‘in the positive flow’, but when
things go dark, we can struggle against it rather than trust the storm. I want
to be able to flow in light and dark and find the truth and beauty within both.
When I leave this world, I would like to ‘drop the body’ in
a consciousness characterised by love and grace. To do so I have to start now.
I am working to rid myself of thoughts and feelings of resentment, fear, hate,
jealousy and so on. I trust that the process
of life is occurring to clear me of these lower intents and I seek to allow
them to purify my attachment and ego.
So my affirmation for the next few days is:
My heart is open. I speak with loving words.
Until next time, stay open.
Namaste
Sally
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