Hello Again,
It is interesting but hardly surprising that the affirmation
“It is safe to look within” had me in a flurry of outward activity. In fact, I
ticked so many ‘to do’ boxes that I should affirm to look within to get me moving whenever I feel like vegging on the
couch. I managed to maintain an inner
reflection as I worked through my tasks, but I must admit I was particularly captivated
by my mental dialogue.
As I witnessed the passing parade of thoughts, most of which
were anchored in the ego realm, it occurred to me that this was certainly not
the desired awareness of this affirmation. I noticed that I was merely moving
my ‘stuff’ around and bringing up dust as I did so. Noticing everything that
comes up feels like work, but at the end of the day, despite the focus it
takes, shifting it around doesn’t constitute a real clean. My thoughts are sometimes
excruciatingly uncomfortable and some of them have to go!
If you’re anything like me, thoughts come and go without and
even despite of, any conscious effort. It is seemingly impossible to choose
what will come in, but it must be
possible to choose what we allow to stay. I found it easier to let go of
certain thoughts when I contemplated them as objects in the rooms of my mind
that were actually grabbing for my awareness. I could then choose what I would
focus on and what I did not want to give my energy to. I started with the
irritating ones, held them in my mind and then affirmed to ‘go within’ dragging
them with me.
My intent was to see the thought as a surface ego
manifestation and take it within where the light of soul would shine truth upon
it. What was revealed in that light was not all love and joy, in fact, the
opposite was true. The light revealed my attachments and wounds and in some
cases I saw my unwillingness to get
out of my judgement around certain issues. When people conduct themselves in
ways that are deceitful or selfish and that hurts us, I guess it is just easier
to contemplate them as assholes and firmly draw the ‘us and them’ line. Be that
as it may, nothing leaves our life until it has taught us what we need to learn
– and I think the lesson is a little deeper that me making a character
assessment – albeit an accurate one!
So I am staying with the notion of continuing to look within
– in safety. I intend to open to deeper learning within my judgement thoughts
that still lurk in the recesses of my mind. I truly want to see the blessing,
the growth and the divinely orchestrated path that is ushered in by the events
of my life and to do this; I need to give up my need to keep enemies. The
Universe agrees, because the affirmation I divined for today is:
I trust the process of life
Now this is something truly worth embodying – after all, life
is our only true Guru. Let’s take a few days with this one.
I hope you are all going well. With school holidays upon me for
the next three weeks I will definitely continue with daily affirmations;
however the blogs might be less frequent.
Namaste
Sally
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